fuck

oh hai boyfriend wisdom

"We like to believe a truth is out there, yet most of us choose not to look for it. We are either happy with what we have or just dont or cant care enough about it to pursue it. By finding the truth i find my dream."

~luke morton

slash

i am
so
fucked up right now

i can only think of two people in this moment
who i legitimately care about


but only this moment

head/heart
in hibernation

only the crazy exists 

but only in this moment

unless this moment is forever

my legs are asleep

i need to find the perfect trance song.
im going to a party
where i'll only be allowed one request.

i want a super dance-y one.
and a really long one. 

hai

tell me why
i'm so hot right now?
like, what the fuck.
when it is all rainy and cold outside
and then i'm sitting here
having a hot flash
or some shit

my room is strange.

also, usually my room is like
ten degrees
colder
than any other room in the house

i think it's trying to tell me something.

edit: two minutes after posting this and i'm freezing.

i rolled up my already short sleeved shirt

and somehow that

made me cold

cold

cold. 

i've been told i'm cold.

.

http://lavieboston.com/

i love the strings in this live version

also i love the ending.
it sounds like heartbeats.
very soft.

i like to lose myself in the possible worlds

http://2photo.ru/14237-fotomodel-asya-arteeva-izbrannoe.html

most of which are impossible. 

on another note: the trance im listening to is perfection. must obtain tracklist. 

just what i needed.

smile emerging on face

involuntarily 

love when that happens

sunflowers are my favorite

when you feel them readying

just play trance

lose yourself


and think of the people you love

only way to save your heart

i want so much candy

http://de--luca.deviantart.com/

"Anyone who keeps the ability to see beauty never grows old."

                                                                                                        ~Franz Kafka 

reminds me of:  "it's inevitable....when you grow up, your heart dies."

                        "who cares?"

                         "...I care."

!!!!!!!!!...!!!!!!!!11111

so, if you haven't seen on my facebook

or

i haven't texted you about it yet,

TIESTO WILL BE IN VEGAS UNTIL DECEMBER 2011


i don't care what i have to do

must see him at least once

i am eternally broke but

this

this my friends,

is going

to

happen.

wanna go with me?

emerged for a while

hopeful -

well,

maybe.

but then i remembered

even bambi's mom gets shot.

just another nowhere lullaby

a thousand wasted brooklyners all depressed

http://www.atheistnexus.org/profile/Dominiq

“Neither of us says the word love, not once. It would be tempting fate; it would be romance, bad luck.”

 —Margaret Atwood, The Handmaid’s Tale

terrible love

http://fuckyeahblackmodels.tumblr.com/

.

"i think i want to be forgiven.
yes.... i want to be forgiven."

reminds me of

http://www.summerpierre.com/2006_08_01_archive.html

this is our decision
to live fast and die young
we have the vision
now let's have some
fun

god is a girl

http://www.stumbleupon.com/stumbler/Rigel-5/tag/smoking/

haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

honestly,

fuck this.

i thought it would be different this time




and




i forgot to take my friend's advice

i didn't scream
 
so i'm trapped in my head

the worst prison

the fucking

worst.

i'm screaming in my head

but

it isn't enough

i'm not enough.

i had a dream i bought my faux fur coat

really want an obnoxious


oversized 


faux fur coat.


in honesty, inspired by 

the heroine chic look 


so i can just look skinny and all 


fucked up 

beneath my huge coat

being responsible and not going out drinking tonight!

"i've heard it's possible to grow up. i've just never seen anyone actually do it."


responsibility sucks.

i still haven't got anywhere that i want

http://www.bsattler.com/blog/?cat=15&paged=2

you said that you did but you didn't understand

my thoughts were so loud i didn't hear my mouth 

my thoughts were so loud

thinking about the monster below the surface

not in a downer mood right now or anything

just thinking about

the tamed beast

(though in different degrees)

in us all.




we are not alone.