well?

http://poiseandvogue.blogspot.com/2010/05/model-party.html

"It's such a stupid question, in my opinion. I mean, how do you know what you're going to do till you do it? The answer is, you don't. I think I am, but how do I know? I swear it's a stupid question."

~ from The Catcher in the Rye

"I don't know why we behaved like lunatics."


~ from Heart of Darkness

destroy me trance

http://kultkids.tumblr.com/post/3551355025

getting into shape beginning...

this coming week. 

no more subway pizzas 

gr :(

but that is only because we are not in boston.

california is not subway pizza friendly. 

"Remembering that you are going to die is the best way I know to avoid the trap of thinking you have something to lose. You are already naked. There is no reason not to follow your heart."

"No one wants to die. Even people who want to go to heaven don't want to die to get there. And yet death is the destination we all share. No one has ever escaped it. And that is as it should be, because Death is very likely the single best invention of Life. It is Life's change agent. It clears out the old to make way for the new. Right now the new is you, but someday not too long from now, you will gradually become the old and be cleared away. Sorry to be so dramatic, but it is quite true.


Your time is limited, so don't waste it living someone else's life. Don't be trapped by dogma — which is living with the results of other people's thinking. Don't let the noise of others' opinions drown out your own inner voice. And most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition. They somehow already know what you truly want to become. Everything else is secondary."

~Steve Jobs, CEO of Apple. 

read the entire speech here.

seriously. read it. 

edit: a few weeks/slightly over a month after i wrote this, steve jobs died. keep him in your hearts, and his message.

daul kim. 

today my mom surprised me
with some chanel lipstick.
i remember daul saying on her blog
that when she modeled for chanel
they gave her free makeup
and she felt very grown up having
chanel lipstick in her purse.

and thats how i feel.
when my mom presented me with my gift
i instantly sat up straighter and crossed my legs
because with chanel
you are a lady
and nothing is more ladylike than
lipstick.

i'm happy.

.

http://popsicledownside.tumblr.com/post/3989615463/what-gets-you-up-in-the-morning-this-sucks

step 1. 

reformulate.

repeat. 

end. 

don't know why i'm thinking about cowboy bebop so much lately.

i remember a few years ago,
i was playing this song alone in some room,
head slumped forward on my arm on a table.
my brother walked in and said i looked like
one of those lonely old guys at a bar drinking alone.
i liked the rustic imagery of it.

i like this song. 


it just makes me think....

easy come, easy go. 

and we will take whatever comes.

i've been getting the urge to blog a lot lately
but whenever i sit down to do it
i am blank.

it's shitty because
it just makes me feel even more
________
than i do everyday.
like, i can't even be productive enough to blog
and blogging used to be my haven.

and now i don't feel anything.
i don't know.

ah, well. whatever happens..happens.

bang.

its impossible to be afraid when you listen to nyan cat.



try it.

:D

how can the world be a bad place
when this exists on the internet.
seriously.

i stepped on a piece of glass.

that's all. 

end. 

blogger is fucking causing me problems with this post

whenever i start getting down, i think about megan fox and how hot she is. observe:

now, doesn't the world seem like a better place already?

and at least the fucking post worked this time.