i think i might, finally

for those of you who can get through 11 minutes of song....

 ....and not even realize how much time has passed.

 love.

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the shade was dense
colorless yet shining.
you were a sun
masquerading as the moon -
a transparent costume
that only added to your charm.
independent and passionate
self-sustaining and fluid
a sharp flare reaching out
to grasp the depths of time,
an ironic beacon
pointing to the cold and stationary world
instead of becoming part of it.

as you embraced time
time embraced you.

you collapsed violently into the concentrated darkness,
into an endless black hole.
my eyelids went heavy
as i tried to find a point of impossible light. 

my second eyelid lifted.
there was no visible light
but i knew that i was blind
and i felt in that moment
the most reassuring promise
of time and space.
as the events in our lives melt us
beyond that dark horizon
we all become one.
broken into the same elements
our cores exposed in offering as our
mothering universe pulls us home.
whether moon
whether star
whether a dying star
in eternity's beautiful abyss we fall
and we become one.

under the microscope

into the universe.

courtesy jason douglas,

microscope images from his lab.

he said i could call him randall.

ive always found it strangely comforting to hear the coyotes
by my house
start howling
late at night.

they are crazy
and super loud
and so many
and always starting around the same time each night

just
comforting.

i wonder what they say to each other?

pure

i can't even describe how this song makes me feel
goosebumps
lost in time
and maybe even space
happiness
sadness
smiling
holding back tears
everything
nothing
limbo
dancing
sitting
but mostly
love
only love.