i went to the gym today.
usually i don't like gyms, i like biking but today didnt feel like a day to look at the flowers or feel the wind and enjoy a nice summer day outside. i just wanted like...oblivion.
the gym you can just keep walking and walking and not appreciate anything else (except for ipod/music) or get distracted, you can just stare ahead and walk into oblivion. which was nice, i was craving nothingness. i needed to get to as close to nothing as i could get and the elliptical was that.
usually i consider the elliptical kinda like...pansy...i started jogging like a year ago. but i wanted the smoothness of the elliptical, jogging seemed too hard. and i had a headache and the up down up down of jogging would have worsened it. i have headaches like....daily. pills dont help, water doesnt help, sleep doesnt help, lack of liquor doesnt help. also jogging is hard i cant do it for long, i get tired so easily!
but the gym gave me what i needed.
nothingness. but not emptiness. but not full, either.
it wasnt good, it wasnt bad. just nothing.
my music was good though.
