once upon an amelia

there exists a very rare breed of songs

that no matter how popular
how played
(notice not overplayed - because that is impossible for this rare breed)

that their value is never diminished
your emotion to the song is always as strong
as the second time you heard it
(nothing can quite compare to the first)

this is one of them
stairway to heaven is another

i can't even think of other songs in the same league right now
i'm sure i know MAYbe a handful more

but it is rare
and magical
and terrible
and beautiful

we all have our different tastes
and our songs that are in this rare breed

this is by far,
one of the best
 to me.

someone like you

when i meet you in eternity
i'll be wearing bright colors
so you can find me.

i miss you.

“Numbing the pain for a while will make it worse when you finally feel it.”  

~J.K. Rowling, Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire

skjfhdxn

"Okay George, the pity thing? Not good. If you want crappy things to stop happening to you, then stop accepting crap and demand something more."

~said by Cristina Yang from Grey's Anatomy, back when that show was actually good

and not too fucking over the top and soap-y.

all shows go downhill after season3/4.

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http://weheartit.com/entry/14880551

i guess you can either find comfort or sorrow in that. 

i haven't decided which one yet. 
i guess both. 

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"But the most remarkable discovery in all of astronomy is that the stars are made of atoms of the same kind as those on the earth.*

[as footnote] *How I'm rushing through this! How much each sentence in this brief story contains. 'The stars are like atoms on earth.' I usually pick one small topic like this to give a lecture on. Poets say science takes away from the beauty of the stars - mere globs of gas atoms. Nothing is 'mere.' I too can see the stars on a desert night, and feel them. But do I see less or more? The vastness of the heavens stretches my imagination - stuck on this carousel my little eye can catch one-million-year-old light. A vast pattern - of which I am a part - perhaps my stuff was belched from some forgotten star, as one is belching there. Or see them with the greater eye of Palomar, rushing all apart from some common starting point when they were perhaps all together. What is the pattern, or the meaning, or the why? It does not do harm to the mystery to know a little about it. For far more marvelous is the truth than any artists of the past imagined! Why do the poets of the present not speak of it? What men are poets who can speak of Jupiter if he were like a man, but if he is an immense spinning sphere of methane and ammonia must be silent?"

~from The Feynman Lectures on Physics,

section 3-6

This.

“The knowledge that the atoms that comprise life on earth - the atoms that make up the human body, are traceable to the crucibles that cooked light elements into heavy elements in their core under extreme temperatures and pressures. These stars- the high mass ones among them- went unstable in their later years- they collapsed and then exploded- scattering their enriched guts across the galaxy- guts made of carbon, nitrogen, oxygen, and all the fundamental ingredients of life itself. These ingredients become part of gas clouds that condense, collapse, form the next generation of solar systems- stars with orbiting planets. And those planets now have the ingredients for life itself. So that when I look up at the night sky, and I know that yes we are part of this universe, we are in this universe, but perhaps more important than both of those facts is that the universe is in us. When I reflect on that fact, I look up- many people feel small, cause their small and the universe is big. But I feel big because my atoms came from those stars.”

~Neil deGrasse Tyson

This man is amazing.

i'm not living i'm just killing time

minion.

"What are you doing out here?"

"I'm dreaming."

"Really? ...It all seems so real."

the longer i stay alive

 http://vpmag.net/2011/08/

the more i realize music is really the only thing worth living for,
truly.

in time you'll love me as one of your own

http://www.flickr.com/photos/matthieu-aubry/239278903/sizes/m/in/photostream/

i stare

http://seattletimes.nwsource.com/html/fieldnotes/2017670592_animals_on_the_move_first_survey_results_and_photos_galore.html

do you think they'll play with us?

die antwoord.

:D

wow i'm loving this!

get on board the night train

http://28.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_lqmd964J311r1at80o1_500.jpg

"I don't like change, it's very disorienting. I mean something changes in your life and you have to adapt which means you have to change. But what if i like who i am and don't want to change? Sometimes I can't even tell if I'm moving forward or I'm like frozen. It makes me feel like I'm not in control of my life…it's kinda scary don't you think? 

"It's not that bad…being scared doesn't mean you're in a bad situation, it just means new things are coming your way. It depends on how you see your future i guess."

"What do you mean?"

"Do you see it as this thing far, far away full of ideals and wonderful impossible things or do you see it as the next hour, the next moment?"

"Does it really matter?"

"I think so. One definitely feels better than the other."

~from All the Days Before Tomorrow

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"Your heart understood mine. In the depth of the fragrant night, I listened with ravished soul to your beloved voice. Your heart understood mine."

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wowow cant believe how long its been since ive listened to this

i need to stop listening to trance at night. it hops me up too much and i can never get to sleep. all i want to do is dance.


i miss this cd.

"Late at night my mind would come alive with voices and stories and friends as dear to me as any in the real world. I gave myself up to it, longing for transformation."

~Jo March, Little Women (movie)

and they're sharing a drink called lonliness but it's better than drinking alone

"By yourself you can do nothing here. Have you not noticed how tightly we shut out strangers? Even if you lived here for a lifetime, you would remain a stranger."

"Perhaps that is what I like. There is peace in being a stranger."

~The Strong Breed, by Wole Soyinka

dvd player obtained!

http://hipsterhandbucher.wordpress.com/category/hot-hipsters/

thanks to a certain charming best friend.

giant little animals to feed

i'm married to my music.

loving this demo version of monsters!




hard to decide if i like the demo or album version more.

either way, happy valentines day to my one true love - well, loves. My headphones and ipod! Aptly named Orpheus (II) and Eurydice.
they've gotten quite a lot of action today.

when I'm having a personal dance party

i like to blast sleigh bells.

the original rage face?

probably one of my favorite movies. 

when I was super drugged up after I got my wisdom teeth removed

this is the movie I requested to watch as I fell asleep.  

best writing/study album

animal collective's "campfire songs"

never fails me.

oh hai guys

http://www.nataliedee.com/archives/2011/Oct/

but pika is better

http://29.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_lywvngPTgw1qd1404o1_500.jpg

favorite songs of the moment

1) hold tight london - chemical brothers
2) louder than boom (extended mix) - tiesto
3) monsters - band of horses
4) i try - macy gray
5) some of these days - andrew bird
6) fireworks - animal collective

in no particular order.

this i can't deny

i try to say goodbye and i choke
try to walk away and i stumble
gonna try to hide it
it's clear
my world crumbles when you are not near.

I have to write this for posterity

That awkward moment when your brother tells you his friend searched for "boobs" and found a photo of you on imgur and reddit.

And I'm just gonna leave it at that.

from daul kim's blog, I LIKE TO FORK MYSELF:

"you start to wonder

why

your face seems to glow

after the night you drank

and also you start to realise

the next day your face looks dull

so you start to do this

drink tonight and look good tommorow morning,

and then drink tommorow night for the

day after tommorow,

and you wake up one day with a headache.


so you stop for a while, and then you drink again

the champaign you got after shooting, and suddenly

you have to deal with reality and failed relationships

you get a massive headache and you come home

and pass out."

thanks bros

repeat repeat repeat.

wowowoW.

http://www.photographyabdu.com/free-photograph-asian-people-of-human-interest-photography/

a couple days ago 

a massive butterfly flew in front of my car

it was so big and bright. 

i didn't even know ones like that existed here. 

i stared at it for awhile in my car

probably blocking traffic.

making islands where no islands should go

i watched paranormal witness last night

there was some evil poltergeist attacking a home. 

i keep watching ghost shows, ufo shows, big foot shows, and other paranormal stuff...

i'm turning into one of those people who

is going to think everything is some crazy conspiracy 

of

mystery

.

http://her0inchic.tumblr.com/post/10193861299

i chose coffee. 

with a side salad.

"should i kill myself, or have a cup of coffee?"

also

Um Hi. 




love of my life part II.

from sarah

http://practicingdainty.tumblr.com/

linked from sarah farrell's blog

one of the the 

lights of my life. 

SARAH'S BLOG.

well?

http://poiseandvogue.blogspot.com/2010/05/model-party.html

"It's such a stupid question, in my opinion. I mean, how do you know what you're going to do till you do it? The answer is, you don't. I think I am, but how do I know? I swear it's a stupid question."

~ from The Catcher in the Rye

"I don't know why we behaved like lunatics."


~ from Heart of Darkness

destroy me trance

http://kultkids.tumblr.com/post/3551355025

getting into shape beginning...

this coming week. 

no more subway pizzas 

gr :(

but that is only because we are not in boston.

california is not subway pizza friendly. 

"Remembering that you are going to die is the best way I know to avoid the trap of thinking you have something to lose. You are already naked. There is no reason not to follow your heart."

"No one wants to die. Even people who want to go to heaven don't want to die to get there. And yet death is the destination we all share. No one has ever escaped it. And that is as it should be, because Death is very likely the single best invention of Life. It is Life's change agent. It clears out the old to make way for the new. Right now the new is you, but someday not too long from now, you will gradually become the old and be cleared away. Sorry to be so dramatic, but it is quite true.


Your time is limited, so don't waste it living someone else's life. Don't be trapped by dogma — which is living with the results of other people's thinking. Don't let the noise of others' opinions drown out your own inner voice. And most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition. They somehow already know what you truly want to become. Everything else is secondary."

~Steve Jobs, CEO of Apple. 

read the entire speech here.

seriously. read it. 

edit: a few weeks/slightly over a month after i wrote this, steve jobs died. keep him in your hearts, and his message.

daul kim. 

today my mom surprised me
with some chanel lipstick.
i remember daul saying on her blog
that when she modeled for chanel
they gave her free makeup
and she felt very grown up having
chanel lipstick in her purse.

and thats how i feel.
when my mom presented me with my gift
i instantly sat up straighter and crossed my legs
because with chanel
you are a lady
and nothing is more ladylike than
lipstick.

i'm happy.

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http://popsicledownside.tumblr.com/post/3989615463/what-gets-you-up-in-the-morning-this-sucks

step 1. 

reformulate.

repeat. 

end. 

don't know why i'm thinking about cowboy bebop so much lately.

i remember a few years ago,
i was playing this song alone in some room,
head slumped forward on my arm on a table.
my brother walked in and said i looked like
one of those lonely old guys at a bar drinking alone.
i liked the rustic imagery of it.

i like this song. 


it just makes me think....

easy come, easy go. 

and we will take whatever comes.